March 8, 2009

March 3, 2009

astrology of possible future shows.

Okay, on to the future. And we're talking a fairly distant future, as there are no shows to exist until the last week or so of the month that I know of.

Again, I'm looking at 9pm for each of these days.

Sprinkles/Minoton - Sun 0 Aries, Moon 26 Capricorn. The moon's VOC that night. I've never been to the venue but I know the area and it seems like a stupid idea. I'm curious about Minoton nonetheless and hope they announce something else later-soon.

Parade of Storms - Sun 5 Aries, Moon 29 Pisces. This venue tends to start later in the evening, so as long as the show starts after 10:05, which is typical, it should be okay. Details to this show don't seem to have been finalized yet so I haven't decided on it, but the mere fact that it's in the middle of the week might be its demise.

Salvador (or) Danava - Sun 8 Aries, Moon 10 Taurus. All of these late March shows have Sun conjunct Mercury and Venus(Rx). Moon in Taurus for lazy sort of music sounds fine - I don't think any of these artists inspire "pushiness". The moon here isn't doing much to my chart... the last aspect it makes to my chart from Taurus is a conjunction to my Venus, which it'll do earlier that day so I'm going to feel lazy. Meanwhile, Mars is square my Mercury/Sun, so I will need to be watching my health and transportation crap well in advance to this.

White Witch Canyon - Sun 10 Aries, Moon 8 Gemini. Completely ignoring Mars: Excellent. Too bad it's on a Monday the first day of the term.

The Bronx/Black Elk - Sun 11 Aries, Moon 22 Gemini. Venus is conjunct my Descendant this night, and though it's retrograde that sounds like an interesting experimental environment. Pluto's in the same general area, so, EH. Maybe not.

Torche (or) Red Fang - Sun 14 Aries, Moon 4 Leo. Ignoring Venus/Pluto, it's fair astrology. It even matches both of their band-as-a-whole personas. With Venus square Pluto, both aspecting my Mars, I am not pleased. Further the fact that the Sun's opposite my Saturn. I imagine this time is going to be weird for me in general, though it's tough to pinpoint where/why.

Black Elk/Made Out of Babies - Sun 26 Aries, Moon 11 Capricorn. I have no idea where I'll be at this time period, but from this point I like the idea of this show. Sun's trine my Neptune so I'll be out of it but not unconscious. Moon squares my Saturn this night - I'll probably be uncomfortable here, but this venue is pretty small and my music personality does not match the way I look or even behave, so it's likely I'd be uncomfortable anyway. Mars is also square my Neptune about this time.

Mastodon/Kylesa/Intronaut - Sun 2 Taurus, Moon 24 Pisces. The VOC period of this night is REALLY short because both Mars and Venus are at 29.5+ degrees Pisces. I think Pisces describes these bands well. Last time I saw Mastodon they were relaxed and kind of boring (was expecting them to be way more metal), but a Pisces kind of mindset would work well for that. The sun here is conjunct my Venus - good for music in general. I will say the venue sucks and people this night are probably going to be assholes, positive astrology or no.

Ladytron/The Faint - Sun 11 Taurus, Moon 15 Leo. I'm having trouble deciding on this. I saw both of these bands last year. Ladytron was boring. The Faint was also boring but because I couldn't see. They were both a little too dancey for me. I don't like the majority of their new material. But the venue is fairly no-bullshit, I do like them in general, Leo is a jack-off sort of sign, and I could always watch from above and take photos to waste time when they're boring me. Gotta decide, though.

Opeth - Sun 22 Taurus, Moon 7 Capricorn. Meanwhile, Mars is at 15 degrees Aries, opposite my Saturn. Mars-Saturn transits suck, and with Moon in Capricorn leading up to a square to my Saturn... My guess is I won't do it unless they add another band on the bill I want to see and/or don't sell out beforehand and I'm in need of music then.

Into Darkness Fest Day 1 - Sun 1 Gemini, Moon 29 Aries. My guess is that this will be like it was in October, with the first show being free/discount and showcasing mostly local artists. Chances are, some of these artists are going to suck. So, the fact that this show will probably start VOC might be an asset. The moon enters Taurus right about 10pm.

Into Darkness Fest Day 2 - Sun 2 Gemini, Moon 13 Taurus. I don't see anything particularly remarkable here. However, Venus is at the point NOW where it'll be THEN... and I thought it was amusing that NC/whoever put up the dates for the fest now. Because of the close Venus proximity and the same moon sign, I wonder if perhaps one of the Yob show bands is going to end up in the fest.

Into Darkness Fest Day 3 (or) TV on the Radio - Sun 3 Gemini, Moon 28 Taurus. Moon leaves void of course after 11pm, which is crap. Yeah sure, Taurus doesn't really have a "true" VOC, but still. The last Saturday show was taken over by crap. Perhaps the show will just be disproportionate, with the openers having shit-all to do with the "headliners" or something.

Into Darkness Fest Day 4 - Sun 4 Gemini, Moon 13 Gemini. Awesome, a new moon show in my sign. A lot of the last few months/days of weird, awkward, or crappy aspects are faded at this point, so this might be the night that gets all of the good shit. Because of the close proximity to Memorial Day and most people seem to go out of town then, plus being a Sunday, this show might actually be less populated and more cool because of it.

There is also a nearly-confirmed rumor that Nine Inch Nails will be here a day or two after that show... which, if it's the 25th, I can't get to. If they actually play at a venue in town, say the following day, then it'll be fine. It doesn't look like I'll be traveling to see them if they don't actually play here.



Alright, I have to go look at what Venus in early Aries was like in the past for me.

Venus opposite my Mars/ASC:
school yesterday was total bullshit. i shouldn't have shown up then, either. i have no patience for people who are "slow". the whole class atmosphere was slow-as-fuck. some people thrive tearing little tiny fucking pieces off at a time and analyzing the fuck out of them until 'death do us part', but... i can't do that. i get bored super quick. if i get bored, it's only a short jump before i get frustrated. i want to move the fuck on. i hate HATE HATE sitting on thoughts. who fucking cares, really? can we please just move on?

i have had friends that do this to me, where they have to follow a particular process every fucking time we interact, and they similarly can't answer questions directly, so time is completely wasted with them going through their fucking mental processes instead of just getting to the god damn point. i want to know who, what, when, where, how, AS FAST AS POSSIBLE. RIGHT NOW. don't make me go through your shit. i don't care if you're blunt or mean or rude or don't make sense to yourself. just don't kill me with this.

or, worse, when i ask a direct question and getting a fluffy wasn't-paying-attention answer. i get this most out of people who have a lot of water+fire. the question "what are you doing?" always results in an answer that suggests i really asked them "how are you?" and vice versa. "how are you?" "i'm working on something." I FUCKING ASKED YOU HOW YOU WERE YOU FUCK! WHAT FUCKING PLANET ARE YOU FROM WHERE HOW ARE YOU RESULTS IN AN ANSWER REGARDING YOUR ACTIVITY! MAYBE I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU'RE DOING.


LOL. "i was thinking today about the surreality of me showing up to work [words go here]. i must have been dying to draw attention to myself again, so shortly after this little thought of mine, i dropped/flipped a tray of dishes on the floor while i was cleaning up a table. in the middle of lunch. everybody was there, and everyone stopped mid-conversation to stare. nothing broke, but it made a lot of noise."

One year I listened to a shitload of Bill Hicks stuff on this date...

One year I got into a fight with my boyfriend because he thought I was mean to a family member. My boyfriend had Cancer (the sign, silly) and had delusions about family because apparently his family didn't treat him like shit. My family sucks. He didn't "understand".

The same year I talked to a friend who got all passive-aggressive with me because I wouldn't talk sex with her. I talked about how she was pissed because I never fucked her AKA allowed her to manipulate me.

One year I was talking with a guy who I thought looked more like a girl, and he kept trying to upstage me even though I was clearly smarter than he was. He was a designer and into astrology, and seemed to think that because I was female that I didn't know anything about the world... despite the fact that I had years of experience in astrology beyond him and could actually fucking CODE, FROM MEMORY, ACCURATELY rather than regurgitate stolen code. He was pissing me off. Because he was an asshole Libra, when he realized he was pissing me off he went into "I'm just joking around" mode. No. Fucker. BLOCKED.

Also, this is just funny:
5 bad qualities about yourself:
- i think too much about details.
- i'm turned off by practically everything.
- i laugh when it's not funny, and don't get it when it is.
- i'm easily bored.
- i like metallica.


Alright, so... Venus in Aries opposite my Mars? Defensiveness and irritation, boys who look/act like women, and offensive comedians. Great, now I have the mystery solved.

I just want whoever got this far to know that this entry was exhausting to get through, hence why it took me a day from the other entry to post it.

March 2, 2009

astrology of shows i've already looked at

Time for another astrology post. I opened up the ephemeris too many times today to not write about it.

I found out about a few shows recently. I haven't looked most of them up in any proper way, some not at all. My brain done be occupied. But now's my chance!

But, first...

I don't think I ever re-viewed the last astro-post I did on concerts here. To recap and do that, here we go.

Black Cobra - The Sun's at 11 Sagittarius, the moon at 11 Aquarius. ... here the Sun is conjunct Mars (so the Sun and Mars are both opposite my Sun), which isn't something I would want to see for a concert... However, being Black Cobra, Sun+Mars (LOUD! FRANTIC! RIGHT NOW!) describes their music to a point, and the venue doesn't attract too many retarded assholes, so it may 'work'.


Off the top of my head, there were no issues with transportation that day and I got in just fine. There weren't many people there and those that were were mostly polite, so I think shitty energy was avoided. I think it might have something to do with the fact that men and these bands are masculine and attract masculine mindset, sun+mars energy works for them.

I DID go home that night to an electrical fire. Plus with those planets in my SOLAR 7th house, yeah... well... boys are pretty when they're ugly.

Kowloon Walled City/Salvador - Sun at 14 Sagittarius, Moon at 18 Pisces.


The show was fine, but I was trying to conserve my energy and stay healthy because I had so much going on for the next few days and therefore stayed out of a "concert mood". I'm really glad I went to this because I've missed Salvador every other fucking time, but at the moment I was burning because I really wanted to see Earthless. Meanwhile, I think I was recognized by a person or two in an intuitive, deductive sort of way but I never bothered to acknowledge them since I wasn't sure who they were. Confusion = Pisces. And, for me, Pisces runs through my 6th house of..health. And I was sleepy and in a low mood, which is Pisces for you.

Akimbo/Ancient Age - Sun at 15 Sagittarius, Moon at 1 Aries. ... Sun conjunct Mars carries a similar feeling as Aries-anything. The Sun and Moon compliment each other, too, being of the same element. In my experience, people tend to act over-the-top if not straight up assholic during Aries moons, and for me this often comes out in drunk people. This one is taking place at a bar, so.. uh, YEAH.


I did something embarrassing this evening and forgot something really stupid because I got directionally turned around, which is the Moon opposite my Mars/Ascendant in combination with the Sun aspecting my Saturn. I felt kind of strung out all night, probably having a lot to do with the amount of caffeine running through me. However, drunk people stayed out of my way.

Nine Inch Nails - Sun at 16 Sagittarius, Moon at 14 Aries. Same deal, basically, but more clear. NIN brings in assholes galore. They seem to be promoting more "fun" kind of songs these days, so I imagine a lot of shoving around. Moon at 14 Aries opposes my Saturn - I'm going to feel out of it. I already know I'm going to be tired.


I was so very much not "there" for this show. I was thinking about everything else. I was fucking tired but dealing okay, up until I had a confrontation with a security person who wanted me to remove the lid from my cup of water WHICH THEY GAVE ME. UH. OKAY? I removed the fucking lid. I ended up spilling it. When NIN started, the people around me were jerks and it took a while to adjust to a better place in the crowd. By then, I was thinking about the time.

The Sword - Sun at 19 Sagittarius, Moon at 28 Taurus.


I didn't go. I don't remember why offhand, but the moon's void of course AKA no.

Iommi Stubbs - Sun at 21 Sagittarius. The moon's in Gemini, which would normally be okay for me... but it's void of course, and has been all of this day.


I didn't go. I didn't have a ride home to this.

The Ax/Salvador - Sun at 26 Sagittarius, Moon at 11 Virgo. Some of the above complaints apply - getting really sick of mutable transits these days. Here the Sun is conjunct my Neptune, and the moon's transiting my 12th house - similar kind of energies, "down", ephemeral, sleepy, lost.


I couldn't get to or back from this one. The moon's square my mercury, and I have a 3rd house (transportation) Neptune.. so yeah. Back with MFNW when the Sun was in Virgo square my mercury/sun, I couldn't get home from some of the shows because of transportation issues.

Danava - Sun at 10 Capricorn, Moon at 2 Pisces.


Didn't go. I wanted to be home and safe and happy and warm, not cramped in a place with binge-drunk assholes.

Black Elk - Sun at 21 Capricorn, Moon at 22 Cancer.


Ditto. Apparently I could have gone to this because Black Elk started their set early and I would have been able to get home just fine without having to be there too long. Still, home is nice.

Combichrist - Sun 8 Aquarius, Moon 29 Aquarius.


Yeah, right. VOC? Fuck it, not even worth trying.

YOB - Sun 10 Psc 44'48", Moon 00 Tau 48'57"
In short, I will have the angst but it'll be fun.


Angst does not begin to cover it. The moon was VOC most of this day. Most people do not leave home the minute a concert starts (which is when the moon finally entered Taurus) - there's a few hours of prep. Driving, eating, calling people up, getting dressed, stuff like that. My nearest concert people backed out, and I was feeling like shit, and knew I was going to be cramping the fuck up during this entire show which is so very not the emotion I want to be experiencing at a show that I know in advance is going to be packed full of people. There are pills, but I don't need to feel like I'm leaning when I'm standing perfectly straight and get all paranoid about that when I'm supposed to be paying attention to the stage/music for my money's worth. PLUS, with Sun square my mercury, my phone communications with the ride person were apparently not reaching their fucking fucked brains and therefore I had no way to know if I'd get home without spending a million dollars that I'd rather save for a real emergency.

I will need to post this and do the rest of this in another entry because this is a mess.

February 22, 2009

February 21, 2009

heavy cream filling.

I woke up this morning and it was seven days to go. I'm not sure how this always happens where I'm focused on the goal months before, but I always lose track of shows in the weeks just beforehand. And then, suddenly, it's a few days away. Hm. Well.

I haven't updated in a while. I didn't have much to say. I was pissed off and sick, and pissed off about being sick. I missed a lot. I've had to make some changes in my life. I'm in a low mood, again. These happen a lot this past couple of years, just rampant disgust and dislike of everything. I wonder if my food was drugged when I was younger. Or, alternatively, there's something in the air or water here now. I think it's time to find and update my resume.

In the meantime...

The moon is void of course, so this might all be lies lies lies tomorrow. but. The new Lily Allen doesn't seem too bad. I've only listened to about a third of it so far. It's still eclectic, but way more conservative and girly than the former. And quiet. Maybe she'll get more "respect" from this.

Just started to sample the new Zoroaster. So far so good. Relaxed stonerdoom. I can tell I'll be playing it a lot already. but I gotta be moving.

Didn't know what to expect from The Bakerton Group other than generic rock. It comes across as familiar, definitely Clutch-ish. I haven't done my research yet, but needed to sample them.

Apparently Jane's Addiction is going to do some shows with Nine Inch Nails before NIN goes on an undefined hiatus. That's interesting. So I may see that band if they play here before/after their Gorge show, which if it'll happen will be announced fairly soon. I never got into them when it was relevant because I couldn't get over the voice. BEEN CAUGHT STEE LIN. ONCE. WHEN I WAS FIVE. Wow, I haven't heard that song in years... yet I quoted it, just like that. Fucking radio brainwashing.

So yeah. That might require more research than a couple of radio songs. Durn.

I dyed my hair yesterday and there was cutting of the hair before that, so I've listened to the radio some in recent times. Still playing the same shit they were playing years ago, back when I was a kid. I thought they'd be more fresh... It's been years since I've regularly listened to the radio. You'd think I would be out of it, radio musically. But no, it was Stone Temple Pilots and Primus and Sublime and other bands that were around 15-20+ years ago. Maybe they play newer shit more in the afternoon or something, but yeah... ergh. I can listen to STP and Sublime anytime I want. Isn't the radio supposed to deliver something more fresh? At least ten years fresh?

I guess that's the responsibility of college radio?

And I just gave up... I'm listening to the unmastered Mastodon album. I held off a whole day (and waited until the moon left VOC and entered aquarius halfway through that last paragraph...).

While I wait for it to sink in... I think it was really strange when, after my slow progression of musical taste/interest in 2008, Mastodon began to sound boring. Especially Blood Mountain. I loved the fuck out of that album when I first heard it. I remember listening to it when it came out and wondering why I couldn't as easily get into their former albums. I tried. I made a habit out of it. And suddenly, out of nothing, "Mother Puncher". And as my tastes got a little heavier elsewhere, Blood Mountain was no longer making an impact. I remember seeing them live, being excited and relieved at once, and the start of "Crystal Skull" made my fucking day... Now, it's more like "eh." I never turned on them, so I don't fucking get it.

Of course, I turned on Boris after seeing them live but I love some of their newer recorded stuff. Some. Drone is yucky except in rare, tiny doses done by professionals.

Thumbs down on "Quintessence". Might be the style of recording. I was doing fine with the first two. So far this album is sounding whiny and sad as a whole. I'm going to skip out on the rest of this so I can find a fresher palate.

Found out another Danava show next month. I'm going to make an effort this time. At present, it appears to be fair timing - last weekend of break. I kind of wanted to see Wildildlife before, and there they will be. And there's Thrones, and nobody gives a fuck about Mister Preston. Hey, that was the first time I laughed since I started writing this entry.

I also found out about another Torche show today. The opener sounds like a fucking waste of space so I'm wondering if that's a mistake. But the headliner sounds like they suck, too. I thought I knew them but checking out myspace... mm, no. Wondering why/how the hell they got on that bill.

And there's Opeth. I can't decide yet. Too many shows, they're getting expensive, I'm better to wait until I know what my finances will look like. I do want to hear that voice again. I'd buy recordings of just him talking. It's like when I was 12 and first heard a guy my age post-vocal-puberty talk. MORE PLS.

When I was 11-ish, my voice started to change. It was a bit drastic for a lady because both my parents have boomy voices. I'm not sure now what I sounded like before, but I knew I sounded a little boyish and like I was getting over bronchitis for a while. I thought it was funny and liked it... I was gonna have a sexy voice when I grew up.

I've heard recordings I did when I was 12, and I sound... like a little girl. Where did I go wrong in my judgment?

Moving on.

I haven't talked about Prodigy yet. The album's good. The first couple of days it reminded me of idiots I've known and their awful taste in music as well as seeing MSTRKRFT and wanting everyone to die. It leveled out.

I never got into and barely listened to 16, but I did make an attempt at their latest... muh. Not for me at this time. It's memorable stuff, though.

And the hits to my site are going down. I did, however, break 10,000 hits.. yesterday? I wasn't paying attention when it happened so I missed who it was. Anyhow, it's 10k hits in the space of just under a year. I've had it since October 2007, and had like two hits a day for the first couple of months so I could monitor that just fine using whois. I didn't put a sitemeter up until February or March.

I find it interesting how my referrals have changed over time. I get most of my hits from google searches as has been the case since I moved to blogspot. I can't tell for sure, but I have to assume my next group of hits comes from RSS feeders. These unreferred hits have gone up dramatically since blogspot put up the "following" feature. Then there's the bunch from links on websites...

Sounds is getting a ton of hits from robixxx lately. I have no fucking idea why. There were some before, but not like lately. His site is not different. What'd he do, add himself to a big search engine or put up some new suddenly-popular band's discography? ... Though I have yet to check if it might be the same people.

Then there's the standard sludgeswamp and mindgrinder and mercenario and 99miles and my own link on last.fm.

This past week there's been a bunch from a porn site's blogger profile. They tried to follow me, I blocked them, but people can still see my blog on their profile... which is fine by me. Just don't want my shit to be associated with porn. (Capital-P Porn, maybe.)

It's also been interesting watching the number of hits going up because of Red Fang. I apparently joined the bandwagon early / before there was a bandwagon. I only got a few hits from searches for them over the year, but directly after and since they published their PD video, I've gotten what seems to be at least one hit a day overall. Sometimes, several. It has been weird watching how I had to go looking fucking everywhere for their music that I couldn't buy to seeing them being praised the fuck out of lately.

But yep. The Puscifer hits are fading. Now I have to go and post one of Mastodon's songs to keep up the pace. Or whoever else is relevant and popular. Meh.

So, yeah. I'm done now. This took ages. I bet it looks that way.